Random

Koala has exclusively had breast milk since he came home and he LOVES it.  I am not kidding, sometimes he will eat upwards of 15 ounces at a time. This means we have many very generous donors.  My friend C and F (have they been in every post this week? aha) will go on runs with us.  It’s great company for me.

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F has other ideas of what’s fun.

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I took Tilly walking with the boys at my favorite park.  Bear got pretty bored at the end. I let him walk the last stretch with me.

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Bear keeps stealing Koala’s pacifier and or bottle.  He knows it’s hysterical. He doesn’t suck on the pacifier, he just holds it in his mouth.

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My uncle is running for Probate Court judge (he will win).  IF we adopt again, it will be super cool, because he would be the one approving the adoption. We brought Tilly down because, HELLO a huge dog gets people’s attention.  She did AWESOME.  Not an exaggeration, at least 300 people pet her that day.

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My dad walked with us, I couldn’t have done it without him.  Bear was SOOO over it.  We waited about an hour before it was our turn to start walking.  And then it was a few hours to walk the route. He wanted to walk so bad, but he was too slow and so it caused this huge lag between us and the people behind us.

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Honey rode on my uncle’s shoulders for a bit and in the stroller.  Her poor feet were bleeding when we got home.

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zoo day

For the last few weeks, I’ve been watching my cousin’s son, O, one day a week.  He comes over the night before and then she picks him up the following night. He is the closest thing my kids have to a cousin and they LOVE each other. We took Koala to the doctor for a routine check up.

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And then picked Pumpkin from school and headed to the zoo. We met up with C and F.

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Bear playing with breast milk bags. hahah

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Pumpkin got a flamingo feather.

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C is in major baby fever.  She wants a little boy so bad.

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This was the first time I let my kids on the train without me sitting right next to them.  I was freaking out on the inside, but they did great.

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Honey’s date

Koala is getting bigger, so we started our dates again.  We took her to the circus. She loved it but man was it WAY longer than I thought it would be.

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At intermission we found our friends C and F.

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She had a BLAST!

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Afterwards we took the kids out to dinner.  I wanted to take Honey to this fancy hot dog restaurant but the wait going from three people to five was too much. So we walked to another new restaurant but they told us it would be about three hours.  So we walked down to another and sat outside.

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After our dinner the hot dog place called me.  An hour after we got home, the other restaurant called me to see if we were still interested in a table, not even that our table was ready. hahaha

 

Bear wanted his hair up in a ponytail.

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This is how my family watches a movie <3

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Bear did not want to share dad’s arms.

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Honey’s adoption anniversary.

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Flark and Bear.  I can’t wait for the day when these two can sleep together.

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We started a multiracial family playgroup.  Not specifically for adoptive families, but so far, that’s who is coming.

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pretty day

We had a long stretch of crumby weather so when it was somewhat warm we headed out.  We picked pumpkin up from school and had a picnic in the park.

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Poor Koala.  If I use this camera, I can’t take pictures of him when I’m holding him.

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Tilly girl is the sweetest and was awesome hanging around the playground.

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The great thing about having your in laws next door, is that if your one child desperately needs to go to bed, you can still enjoy a walk around the block (they came over).

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Questioning

Today I stopped at Bmom’s house and I asked her what her opinion would be IF we adopted again.  There is an agency in my state that is in desperate need of adoptive parents, specifically for black children. They only work in our state and if they don’t fill the demand, they will have to open up in other states, which is not what they want to do.  She knew that for baby #4 we were only going to be open to a biracial or african american child because we didn’t want Honey to be our only black child.  Then she found out she was expecting.  She knew our position and where we stood. When I asked her what she thought, she didn’t seemed shocked.  She said that she knew that’s what we wanted for baby #4 and knew we thought of Koala as a blessing, but she understood.  She said she felt like if God wanted us to have another child then we would.  Which was kind of my thinking as well.  You see, Honey is not a super confident child.  She is very much aware that she is different than the rest of her family.  We live in a diverse neighborhood, we are involved with the adoption community, have a multiracial playgroup, go to a diverse church, and her school is just the best.  But I know from everything I’ve read and all of the speakers I’ve gone to, that depending on the child’s personality, being different in a family can negatively impact that child for the rest of their life.  That is a very realistic fear I have for Honey.  I also feel tremendous guilt that we were not called on Honey’s half biological sibling (I know it’s God’s plan.  And I know there’s nothing I could have done differently). Not to say Honey is the only reason we would be adopting, I wanted 5 kids from the get go.  The Hubs wanted 3. And we had NO IDEA that, after becoming infertile, we would have our dream family. We would very much welcome and love another child, if we were so blessed.  At the same time I have some major fears.  I LOVE our relationship with the boys birthparents. They respect us as parents, they understand our views on things.  I don’t know that I will be so lucky again.  Would baby/ child #5 need therapies? We don’t have time to put into more therapies.  But I feel that God would give us the child that was meant to be, or not meant to be.  We aren’t going to keep our homestudy open forever.  In fact, we will not be renewing it.  So if we weren’t matched by a certain time, then I am ok with that.  Really, I am just writing to try to figure it out.

the zoo

My brother met us at the zoo… can you believe it? hahaha

When we go we see the same 5 animals every time. I’m sure you guys think that’s all our zoo has ahha.

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My cousin met up with us, for about 5 minutes, until her son was ready to go.

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on we went to our favorite part of the zoo. The bird house

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You cannot tell me they don’t look alike.

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It takes a lot to make this baby cry… like sneezing in his face. hahah

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Pumpkin asked me if she could get this pinecone, I said yes fully believing she wouldn’t be able to.  We sat there for about ten minutes until she was able to get it out.

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We got back when Honey came home (no comments about the helmet please)

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And Bear’s favorite, “driving” dad’s car

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