we have our newest addition. I can’t believe how blessed we’ve been. Introducing Apple! She came to us on Sunday with our new private agency. We were officially waiting with them about a week. It’s crazy to think about. If we would have waited to send our profile books until we got home from vacation, we would have missed out on our daughter. God sure knows what He’s doing. We are so insanely in love and our family is complete. IMG_4971



Oh my goodness. I wasn’t going to update my blog until I caught up on my private Flickr account. This is taking WAY too long. Instead of being a year behind, I am only 8 months behind. haha Moral of the story, I take too many pictures of my kids.

So…we updated our homestudy and did our large family assessment. We are going to try for child #5. We are open to an african american or biracial child 0-4. We are switching agencies…and I feel awful about it. I LOVE our agency. I think they are the most ethical agency their ever was. I would recommend them over and over again. But I know this time, we will have a much harder time getting placed (if at all). They told me they would show our book if they didn’t have any waiting families for this particular child and if (s)he would fit in our checklist. That’s the kind of agency they are. Seriously, the best. But the fact of the matter is that they have a much smaller placement number and I know the families I’m “up against” hahaha. They are awesome. So we are going with a larger, but still state based, agency. Other families I know from our local adoption community have put my worries to rest and we are going for it. If it happens it happens, if it doesn’t, that is part of God’s plans. I told our agency that I would be keeping an eye on foster children available and would have them send my homestudy in for any child we think could be a match. Also, if by some act of God a child falls in our lap and we had an identified match, we would do the adoption through our agency.

Let the prayers begin. Our child could very much be alive right now and going through some traumatic situations. Our child could be conceived right now. Or God’s plan is for our four and there are no more (see what I did there).


This was going to be a majorly long random update but wordpress refused to upload all of my pictures. So instead, you will get this average update in hopes that more pictures will upload later

Pumpkin had a preformance at school and it was amazing.  Her teacher is the best.  Honey’s class was there and it was so cute watching all of the kids.


Pumpkin being the amazing big sister that she is.


We went to a friend’s birthday party.  The girls partook in some spa treatments


I can’t get over how amazingly adorable Bear is in his swim trunks.  I think I am going to order another pair for next year.



Bear’s first sucker.  He was in heaven


Going through dad’s phone I see about 100 pictures just like this.


Found this hysterical pleather hat on clearance.  $3 well spent. hahahah


We went to the park during one of the girls last days of school.  I had to drag Bear out screaming.  He didn’t want off the train





The girls started music class and I LOVE their teacher.



Here we go…???

We have been contemplating trying for #5.  Our homestudy expires in January 2016.  That would give us until July 2015 to get a placement.  We will NOT be renewing our homestudy, so if we don’t have a child by then I am ok with it.  We would be open to whatever God has planned.  We are specifically looking for a biracial or AA child 0-4.  But I feel really weird specifying that.  I mean, we did with baby #4 and then we got Koala and I couldn’t imagine life without him.  God’s plan is definitely better than ours.  We were extremely blessed that our boys had no exposure to drugs or alcohol, which is something we are open to, and don’t know that we would be so lucky again.  There is an agency in our state needing homes for infants but I am also considering another agency that works with finding homes for waiting children across the country.  We will NOT be fostering again and The Hubs isn’t really into the idea of international anymore.  So really those are our only options.

I am VERY VERY VERY happy and in love with my family.  For the first time in forever I am 100% satisfied with our family.  While I know we would love and welcome another child, I know I would be ok if it didn’t happen for us.  It’s a very refreshing place to be.  One of the main reasons we are contemplating doing this is because we know it’s in Honey’s best interest to have a sibling that looks like her. The girls are desperately begging for a sister, but we would never specify gender.


This post isn’t saying we are 100% going for it, just an open dialogue on what goes on in my head.  We did talk to our social worker and she asked if we would wait to update our homestudy until after they finish their audit.

The greatest day!

FINALLY! We officially became a family of 6 (in the eyes of the government).  OF COARSE, we were ten minutes late to our son’s adoption finalization. It was 1/4 till and the kids still weren’t in the car when I realized how late we were.  I went into scream mode.  “EVERYONE IN THE CAR NOW!” We ran, forgot our phones, my MIL was following us at a red light I had the Hubs jump out of the car grab her phone and get back in.  We got there in record time and I was able to call my mom to tell our social worker we were on our way.  Somehow the judge came out and asked if we were ready about 2 minutes before we got there.  My dad was waiting outside for us and paid for our parking spot.  I literally threw my keys at the parking attendant and we RAN! We lost Mimi on the way though.  Our judge was nice enough.  I shouldn’t have brought my “nicer” camera, all of the pictures were out of focus.





Same as with Bear’s, we went to the restaurant my dad eats at EVERY DAY.  He works at the courthouse and wanted to show off his grandbabies.






After we said good bye to everyone, we went to the butterfly show.

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Pumpkin was picking up butterflies left and right.


Two landed on her bottom

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Honey is all about the chase.  Once she gets one she is over it and on to the next.



Bear was way more into the ramp (he just walked up and down over and over) but he did stop when Pumpkin showed him hers.

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As you can imagine, it’s sort of a butterfly massacre so they release butterflies to make up for the ones that didn’t make it.  Pumpkin asked the scientist 100 questions during the release.

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Bear was exhausted at this point.


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This was just before Pumpkin got in trouble for using her hands.  Really she was probably the only kid they didn’t need to worry about.


This kid on the other hand…



At this point Honey was over it and more into the map.


My beautiful beautiful kids.  My world.

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After the butterfly show, we should have gone home.  But we went on.  We got our first swim on of the season.

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Koala loved it! Of coarse


After this, we rushed home to meet the in laws at the same Italian restaurant we celebrated Bear’s finalization and where we took Bmom and Bdad when we first met out of the agency, and where our rehearsal dinner was.




Minus being late to our son’s finalization, it was an AMAZING day!

Family zoo trip

The Hubs and I are putting off many household projects/ maintenance to spend time as a family.  TOTALLY WORTH IT!  The grass is up to our ears.  It can wait another week.  Let’s go to the zoo.

Weekends are my only real time with Honey, soon Pumpkin will be the same. And it breaks my heart.





Bear is obsessed with The Hubs (and vice versa). It is adorable, but man do I wish he’d choose me sometimes. jahahah It’s ok though because my arms are full of super baby love.




Like all things, Bear was terrified to try something new.


We got an amazing view of the new baby giraffe


Momma, sister, baby sister.  The kids love this family









We gave Pumpkin the phone to take pictures, and she did a great job.






When I look at my life, my heart swells with happiness.  I am blessed beyond a doubt and I am so in love with my family.